I’m almost 40 and completely dependant financially on my parents. So ADHD has it’s ups and downs. [Free Download: Your In-Depth Guide to Inattentive ADHD], Tags: guest blog, Inattentive ADHD, My 2020 Vision, treating adults, women with ADHD. The butterfly is constantly there and never leaves you alone, so It distracts you. If you’ve managed to get this far, congrats – you probably can tell how bad my ADHD is because of the lack of any logical organization to this post. It was taking me way longer to do stuff than it seemed my co-workers would take to do the same stuff. My thoughts raced. How do make a choice for what to do with school when nothing matters because your goals are derailed and you donât know how to achieve them and have little interest in other things that you would still need to work hard and struggle though anyway? Are all really easy for me. Around the same time, on road trips to and from visits to my hometown, I got ticketed however many times it takes to be within an inch of having your license revoked. Resist going to school. The social contract isn’t working. I know people that have told me about ADHD and how I might possibly have it, but I’ve never looked for help. so I finish getting ready and leave with only minutes to spare. You might feel like you are moving inside a dream. So, your office stays in disarray, and the fan doesn’t have a way to turn it off or unplug it. My mind wanders I can’t sit still for 30 to 45 minutes answering these questions I’ll go crazy. Youâre life is rushing by and youâre living in a room, alone. I am easily frustrated, and I struggle to keep my emotions in check. And I’m happy to say that I’m not worried about the loony bin anymore. My brain and I have become incredibly well-acquainted. I Had No Safe Place. I can find SYMPTOMS everywhere, but no one ever talks about what ADHD Inattentive feels like? Kids with ADHD may not feel good about themselves because they have trouble keeping up, no matter how hard they try. If I can stay at this job for even 2 years, it’ll feel like a miracle. Rigid timelines are an obsession of the global industrial capitalist system, which needs efficient workers and shoppers and entertainment-gobblers to ever more efficiently convert the world’s forests and mountains and biodiverse riots of life into superhighways, cattle feed, mining waste dumps, and server farms humming away on coal-fired power to keep 2 billion hilarious cat videos and records of iphone owners’ every single step floating in “the cloud.”. The most noticeable symptoms, like hyperactivity, manifest differently in boys and are too often disregarded as "ditzy" behavior in girls. And I’ve definitely prayed. What about the “social model” of disability or abelism?–no one ever talks about that outside of human rights circles. To everyone who helped pull it off and might be reading this: Thanks. It ties in nicely to the “ADHD feels like your brain is understeering” description. Here’s what external ADHD symptoms are actually like from the inside: Hyperactivity feels like being impatient. I work in a fast paced office environment and today was so foggy. Anyways, if you don’t have work life balance, if every single hour of every day revolves around homework or work, –you get burnt out and overwhelmed. And, yes, I have ADHD. Now I’m angry I can’t I can’t think, frustrated, and ready to explode. Wanting things to move faster and not wanting to … But somehow, so many people are quick to lump you into the âoh, it must be ADHDâ bandwagon. My sleep was crap. incredibly late posting in 2021, but gonna do it anyway. Inattentive-type ADHD won’t be as obvious, because it’s not the “physically disruptive boy child” stereotype. Not surprisingly, my feelings of competency, confidence, and self-reliance hit the road, too. Choice of college, jobs, and other things I am always losing and forgetting things. It was she who suggested the ADHD testing, and – even though I was stubbornly resistant to this discovery of hers (“No way! All the papers (invasive thoughts, to-do lists, reminders, important information, etc. As I dug a little deeper into his history, I began to suspect ADHD, specifically the inattentive type. 2 years later he is heavily medicated for ADHD and has a 504 because school performance fell through the floor. Your phrase:, “I feel like a wet puzzle piece…” really stuck out to me. With all the smoke has my car shifted to the right or to the left caused by the excessively fast spinning tires. ADD or ADHD can be very lonely. Having ADHD is challenging regardless of gender but in a world predisposed to undermining women, not having your shit together can feel like a dereliction of feminine duty. But if I had to pinpoint – in retrospect — I would say the trigger was the second kid and then definitely the third kid (and then most definitely the fourth). I come up with really good ideas, and I’m constantly curious about things, but I can neither concentrate enough to get involved, nor act on what I know. Required fields are marked *, how to describe ADHD to someone who doesn't have it. I’ll take it off then put in the hamper but then i see my hamper is full so instead of putting on a new shirt I’m separating dirty clothes and putting them in the washer. Flex time, 4 day work weeks, etc? After all, they’ve had lots of education. Itâs the best! I did great in school! You are amazing. Very accurate young woman! Psychologists aren’t covered by the public health system (in Canada) and I don’t have money to hire a private one. I assumed it was natural to find boring stuff, boring, therefore by default, find any excuse not to do it; it never occurred to me it was a neurological condition ð. I was still on track, competent, and confident. I graduated in the early 2000s from HS with honours. Most recent 17%: HARNESSING THAT SHIT. My brain feels like a circuit that has had so many things plugged into it that a fuse has blown. My go at serving tables at a restaurant was short-lived: I couldn’t answer questions about the menu under pressure and diners kept asking me for things while I was getting other diners’ things – the nerve. !â ððð. I am a full-grown woman. I once paid to have my car, which wouldn’t start, towed to the mechanic only to find out that I had simply run out of gas. 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